(chatter) yap sino ito?
(trippy) di mo na sigurado ako kilala di naman ako cribs eh
(chatter) kaya nga name mo para kaya nga name mo para makilala kita or ma-recall :)
(trippy) send ko na lang pic ko sayo
sent my pic courtest of G4M
(trippy) 1 time lang tayo nagkita. sa bahay nio pa sa sta mesa
(chatter) ka eb ka nino?
(trippy) di ko na matandaan eh pero ikaw ang naging inspiration ko nun para makipag-seb
(chatter) mukha natatandaan kita nung hapong yun
(trippy) hehehe
(chatter) ganun bkit?
(trippy) ikaw nagkwento na nung first time mo masubukan one week mo tinuloy tuloy diba?
(trippy) sinubukan ko rin kaya yun
(chatter) hehhee
(trippy) kaso short ako ng 4 days tagal na pero taena lalim ng impact mo sakin ah!
(chatter) so bi ako sa iyo
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I kept on meeting new people then to divert my attention away from Roy when I had an eyeball with one of their orgmates.
The guy I met with belongs to #cribs, one of the official chatgroups in IRC during our time. He brought me to their headquarters to meet their founder and his buddy - Kuya B. They were a very respected couples then.
Kuya B, who was already an elder shared his first sexual experience with us. He told us that before he met his lover, he would usually do it almost every day.
His mere statements alone inspired me. Finally, I got to realize that if everybody does it, who am I to sulk in one corner, proving my loyalty and faithfulness to someone I really love, but cannot assure me at least of one thing I really needed.
The feeling of being needed.
That night, I began to strike on my own. My target was a guy of the same age as me who lives just around the area.
Life turned the other way around after that.
From time to time, I remember the guy who moved me to follow my own nature - that I can be as bad and game as everyone if I really choose to be one.
Too bad, I only got to tell him that 3 years after it all happened.
In the same channel where he first told me to visit.
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