Toxic

Our 11th monthsary came just when we were about to leave the motmot after a much-anticipated popoy last night. This popoy is one of a kind because we spent more time doing foreplay than the fucking itself. We found each other kissing passionately while hugging one another tightly for more than an hour.

Such an ideal night for a couple who had survived every challenge of building and maintaining a man-to-man relationship.

However, after 11 months, we remain strangers to one another. There are things I have to learn and understand about him and there are things that he should learn about me. We joined Francis, Zeki, Roy, and Meng-meng in Malate. Phanks got the chance to talk and meet the regal couples of ODDERs and I think from his conversation with Zeki, Phanks got to know me better and understood my attitude towards him.

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We went to Bath after since my buddy wanted to dance the night away. Inside the club, he was dancing as if he were in a dance competition (think of how people do interpretative dancing). Daming times ko pinigil lumipad yung kamay niya dahil baka makatama ng iba. Anyway, I was taken in a deep shock seeing him dance with wild abandon. Diyos ko po, hindi ko talaga siya keri masabayan. By 3:30 in the morning, I asked him if we could go home. Ihahatid ko pa kasi siya sa bahay nila sa Valenzuela. I know, he wanted to stay till morning, but our time is up. We needed to get some rest.

Inside the taxi, he was conversing in Bisaya with the driver. Although I was a little bit out of place, but seeing him in that relaxed state made me realize how different we are from one another. That evening, he was complaining that we were very opposite; that he couldn't even tug me along to join his activities. I told him that opposites attract - citing the example of Zeki and Francis (which Francis confirmed later during our meeting.)

What matters is that despite the differences, we can still find a common ground to make the relationship work. I fully understand that he doesn't want to show displays of affection even inside PLU bars like bath. I may be quite disappointed with his reaction, but that's him and I can't force him to change. Papu is right, the strength of our relationship lies in how we respect one another's personality. We have to compromise (despite him avoiding public displays of affection, we're actually making out the whole time inside the dance club. I don't know if he's aware that he is contradicting his earlier statement or he was on the verge of opening up even more to accommodate me.) and accept how the other thinks about the relationship.

He just texted me earlier telling me how he missed and enjoyed our sex, and the night out experience we had last night... Looking at how I made him feel, I think that's how lovers are supposed to make love to their partners - bring them to heaven and back to earth... Remembering the events at the motel... I believe our sexy time was a success. There should be a repeat performance.

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Francis, thanks for the advice and the conversation. Hehehe, first time ata kita nakausap ng ganun. Galing talaga ng lola ni Zeki. Hihi.

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Officially, I'm hooked up with Britney Spear's Toxic

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Yes Vermont, I can be your Kuya. :)

With a taste of your lips I'm on a ride

You're toxic, I'm slippin' under

With a taste of a poison paradise

I'm addicted to you

Don't ya know that you're toxic?