Looking Back: The Three Long Years In Blogosphere (Weekender Entry I)

How time flies.

When I started blogging exactly three years ago, my motive was simply to join the bandwagon of Odders who found more comfort in blogging their stories rather than sharing it in the common PEx thread where even lurkers could read about our personal lives.

Struggles, failures, victories, painful and good moments come and pass. They are meant to be cherished and a source of inspiration, in times of greater trouble that comes ahead. The moment you start writing about your stories, it begins your quest in leaving your footprints in life. And when you have finally written about yourself, there comes a time when your past begins to have connection on your present and future lives.

Like what I've always told others before me, when you have blogged yourself long enough, your past entries begin to speak back to you. The feeling of nostalgia comes from time to time when you're reading them, but the real essence of looking back and realizing how you fared in life gives you an insight on how your life lead to a present, many of us won't understand at first glance.

So here are my turning points during the first year of my blogging. Many of them might be painful stories, but, in looking back, I've learned that these anecdotes made me the person who I am right now.

Thus, the year of our lord 2004 begins

First Quarter: The Beginning (February - April)

Colony Ship Landed - Mugen establishes a home in blogspace.

Self Destruct Nights I, II, III - Odders hold inuman contingents at James' Pad in Paragon with dire consequences.

Ex-Housemate's Reunion - A year prior to the creation of Pulsar, Mugen lives with two people in a secluded apartment somewhere in QC. The three of them decided to see each other and have dinner a year later.

Dreams Of Becoming A Gym Bunny I, II - Mugen realizes that he's not getting thin anymore. In response to his bulging tummy, he decides to check out several gyms within his area.

Calling From Powerflex - Mugen embarks on a work out training, only to quit a week later.

Toxic - Motel moments with buddy. Malate blues with Odders

Infinity Of The Moment - James decides to move to a new pad. Self Destruction Nights end. One afternoon on top of Paragon's rooftop, Mugen had a brief contemplation as to what future he desires for himself.

Epilogue - For six months, Mugen was working for an Ad Agency. After meeting the head of one of the clients he serves, he realized that it's probably time to look back and focus on running their family business, which he abandoned three months before.

Iisang Bangka - Bonding with Meng-meng. One of my bestfriends in Odders

Irony Of Saying Goodbye; End Game - Mugen tends his resignation to the Ad Agency, leaving his dreams of making it big in the advertising behind.

Pains Of Being A Pulis Pangkalawakan - Mugen has always believed that friends should never flirt one another. However, in a dynamic circle where more and more people claims its association to the group, closeness leads to intimacy. Such appaling trend leaves Mugen in a state of dilemma.

Masquerade - Papu celebrates his birthday. The entire Odders showed up to pay their admiration to the great elder of the Outsiders

Ending Song - Mugen's last day as a PR Writer

Anniversary Night - One Year Anniversary celebration with Mugen's partner

Omens, Corporate Bogeyman Nightmares - The return to the printing family business. Headaches and frustrations begins.

Second Quarter: The Chaos Of El Toro (May - July)

A Glimpse On Proxi's Last Days Of Promiscuity - Mugen understands pleasure and intimacy to its core. Left to fend for himself, he waged a lusty campaign for three months before he finally encounters the guy who would finally conquer his heart.

Miracles, Looking For A Place To Hide, Doom Right Before My Eyes - Hardships in the family business.

Can You Keep This A Secret - A brief History of the Outsiders

Lifetime Project - Mugen dreams of making his mother feel like a queen.

For The Very Last Time - The Odders have decided to have a barkada outing in Montemar. Realizing that this would be the last time Meng-meng would spend his time with the guys before he leaves for the US, almost everyone showed up, braving the stormy bay they have to cross in order to get to Bataan. This outing is considered by most Odders as their fondest memory of the barkada.

In Some Alternate Present - Mugen meets someone he had sex with after a painful breakup with an ex a year before. Insights into what if, both of them were open to relationships when their encounter happened.

The First and Last Sunny Confrontation - Breaking down from family business pressures. Mugen strikes back at his father ushering the bitter age of animosity between them.

Call Center Mayhem I and II, Just Like When You Fall In Love - Mugen's experience looking for a job in a call center.

Professor Proxi - Thoughts on what if Mugen decided to become a professor instead

Life, On The Third Day, Before I Let Go - Experience working in a call center; The E-Pacific Global nightmare

Back To Zero - Meng meng leaves for the US, changing the whole landscape of Odders forever.

Third Quarter: The Years Of Silence - Pulsar Moves To G-Blogs (August - October)

In The Year Of Silence I - Mugen is back at jobhunting; His lola suffers from an accident that lead to her permanent blindness; finally, at the last day of September, he finds work as an Internet Researcher in a BPO company in Pasay.

In The Year Of Silence II - A night-out with a straight tropa from his PGC barkada relieves Mugen of his overexposure in the PLU scene; An afternoon bonding with his grandmother at Cardinal Santos leaves a lasting memory in Mugen's mind; Sister reveals that she had recently joined an underground organization, which will become Mugen's pain and bane years later.

Spending My Last Bum Episode On Earth - Mugen prepares for his job at the research company. This is in fact his last real bum episode in life.

Pains Of Adaption I and II - Mugen starts to complain about the hardships of his new job, less than a month after he started working. Suddenly, the thoughts of returning to the ad agency crosses his mind.

If Someone Would Ask Me Why - Mugen reveals his strong reasons for adopting an alternative lifestyle.

Isang Gabi Ng Salsalan - Mugen writes a memoir about his first experience joining a #Salsalan BNO (Boy's Night Out) in Laguna at the eve of getting committed to his first buddy.

Re-speaking Our College Days - Reunion with college friend and Mugen's subsequent outing to his classmates.

Bittersweet Payday - Recieving his first salary, Mugen realizes that it's not easy to live a worker's life.

Fourth Quarter: Portents Of A Brewing Storm (November - December)

Pruning The Rebellion, Crossing The Jetstream, Time - Mugen finally shows signs of burn out in his new job. However, his financial insecurities prevented him from moving on and looking for another career out.

Heart Door - Outing to a very close friend frees Mugen of his difficulties adjusting to a PLU life. Biela has always been his confidant back in college and now that she knows his new preference, Mugen felt that her acceptance would allow him to return back to his college colleagues without any doubt on their reactions.

Dear Diary (I'm Writing This While Eating A Hotdog), Gloryhole - Work is like a love-hate relationship. Despite the difficulties of his job, Mugen begins liking his job.

Crestfallen, Medical City Experience - An Odder was rushed to a hospital. The entire group appeared full force to support his devastated partner.

Eternal Blue Sky - In a moment of solitude, Mugen realizes that his blog's purpose is to delight him first before everybody else.

Sorta Ghost Story - His gift of seeing the unforseen prompted Mugen to write about his haunting experiences in his workplace.

Forces Of Discrimination - Joms complains that his officemates accuse him of being a PLU. Mugen witnessed a group of trannies being trashed by an entire street of vendors in Divisoria.

For Her - Two years after breaking up with his ex-girlfriend, ex-girlfriend sent Mugen a message of reconciliation a day before his birthday.

. - On the eve of Mugen's 23rd birthday, tragedy strikes at home.

Trauma Unit, Psycho, All For The Spirit - Mugen struggles to find peace after a very tragic accident involving his mother.

Encore - 2004 ends, Mugen writes about his hopes and dreams for the coming year.