Perfect

This Smashing Pumpkin's song has been on playback for three weeks now. 

Every time I play the music, or watch the clip on YouTube, the ambient loop drowns my ears and fills my chest with stones. Billy Corgan's nasal voice and his somber appearance add to the pervading gloom, and knowing the story behind the music video - of the actors having grown older after first appearing in 1979  - completes the overall mood for soul searching.

At first, I didn't know the reason I got hooked after all these years of having the music file on my playlist. It is when I learned what the lyrics meant did I understand why Perfect comes close to the feelings that still linger after pretending they don't value anything at all.