Tonight, we shall lift the steely curtains of repression to reveal the naughtier side of me.
It's been several days since I noticed how the kick of mischievousness has loosened my grip with decorum. For three consecutive nights, the pricey self pleasures of phone sex were my safety harness against my conscious attempts to turn into a promiscuous boy. For those of you who were not yet my readers when the Mugenblue-Odinhood Pact was ratified, the treaty with a fellow blogger serves as my abstinence from all the hook-up sites that abound. I can be pretty nasty out there, (considering how expert I've become in the art of baiting everyone thanks to my previous presence in those seedy cyber-foxholes.) and there is no limit to what I can do now that no one holds me back.
A few days ago, another pact has been formalized. This time, the ambiguous agreement hopes to kill any attachments that may form when someone gets close to winning my affection. It's a friendly reminder to never let feelings run, for I may hurt others and myself in the process. Now I see trouble coming, because the same Shuriken Pact can be exploited if and ever I pursue the path towards the pleasures of the flesh.
I'm sure you know what I mean.
The Darkstar sums up the aggressive, dominant and self-pleasing side of my personality. It is driven by confidence and sometimes, the callings of lust fuels its desire to take control of my actions. It used to have a more malevolent reincarnation by the name of Kitsune. Kitsune can sense it's straight-acting prey by simply looking at a guy's body movements. He plays with men without any regard for any emotional connection that may come after the intimacy is done. Fortunately, I stopped short of wielding too much exposure in the Bath Houses and the online hook-up scene when my cruel game has become intolerable.
I fear for the mess my actions might create.
Therefore, the entity disappeared as abruptly as it was created.
So what are the things the Darkstar is capable of doing? I will give you an example of how he engages equally game guys in a conversation. You may consider the exchanges below as something fictional - if you have already engaged me in a real-time sms friendly chat.
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Okay, I'll stop there. I could be kinkier considering how bareback porn - where the actors really shoot their load inside their partner's hole - gives me a boner.
Of course there are limitations when it comes to teasing and doing the things I say in a game of provocation. I am still bound by responsibilities, which I've learned from reading people's thoughts here and elsewhere. Bottom line is, I need to constantly check (and suppress) my carnal leanings for I know that after it's done comes the long period of grieving.
For my other sides have learned that nothing fulfilling comes after a mind-blowing casual sexual encounter.
Even if it's a very intimate threesome with two very masculine top guys, which will forever remain my ultimate but very elusive sextrip.
So there goes my demons running wild within the confines of Mugenblog. As the saying goes, better express one's deadly thoughts than doing it with a stranger, for what has happened can never be undone. March has always been the month of beginnings and the month of conclusions for me.
Whatever path I take must still lead to something profound and constructive.
And though there are times I let go of my inhibitions - like I am doing for this entry, it is my hope that when the real kinkiness of Darkstar comes in, it will be exercised and performed with boundless lust and so full of love with someone who is equally creative, and mightily cunning and twice as aggressive as my potentials reveal.
I am willing to wait for him to come.
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It's been several days since I noticed how the kick of mischievousness has loosened my grip with decorum. For three consecutive nights, the pricey self pleasures of phone sex were my safety harness against my conscious attempts to turn into a promiscuous boy. For those of you who were not yet my readers when the Mugenblue-Odinhood Pact was ratified, the treaty with a fellow blogger serves as my abstinence from all the hook-up sites that abound. I can be pretty nasty out there, (considering how expert I've become in the art of baiting everyone thanks to my previous presence in those seedy cyber-foxholes.) and there is no limit to what I can do now that no one holds me back.
A few days ago, another pact has been formalized. This time, the ambiguous agreement hopes to kill any attachments that may form when someone gets close to winning my affection. It's a friendly reminder to never let feelings run, for I may hurt others and myself in the process. Now I see trouble coming, because the same Shuriken Pact can be exploited if and ever I pursue the path towards the pleasures of the flesh.
I'm sure you know what I mean.
The Darkstar sums up the aggressive, dominant and self-pleasing side of my personality. It is driven by confidence and sometimes, the callings of lust fuels its desire to take control of my actions. It used to have a more malevolent reincarnation by the name of Kitsune. Kitsune can sense it's straight-acting prey by simply looking at a guy's body movements. He plays with men without any regard for any emotional connection that may come after the intimacy is done. Fortunately, I stopped short of wielding too much exposure in the Bath Houses and the online hook-up scene when my cruel game has become intolerable.
I fear for the mess my actions might create.
Therefore, the entity disappeared as abruptly as it was created.
So what are the things the Darkstar is capable of doing? I will give you an example of how he engages equally game guys in a conversation. You may consider the exchanges below as something fictional - if you have already engaged me in a real-time sms friendly chat.
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Darkstar: Anong gawa mo dude?
Prey001: Heto busy sa trabaho. Ikaw?
Darkstar: Petiks sa work. Hey, papisil naman ng etits mo. Nasarapan ako sa trip natin kagabi.
Prey001: Haha sira ka ba. Baka tigasan ako dito, hindi ako makatayo sa chair ko.
Darkstar: Ayos yan bro, tigas na rin burat ko eh. Kiss mo nga si putotoy ko.
Prey001: Mwah!
Darkstar: Nice, kaya kita gustong ka-text eh. Game ka sa banat ko.
Prey001: Miss you.
Darkstar: Tanginamo, pag-nag meet tayo, itotorrid kita. Unahanan na lang kung sino makarating sa langit pag-nagtagpo tayo sa kama. Lol.
Darkstar: Na-iimagine ko kung paano mo ako babanatan. Shit! Baon na baon pre. Dapat walang hugutan buong magdamagan.
Prey001: Ahh sarap. Galing mo pre.
Darkstar: Siguraduhin mo lang na hindi mo ako mapapalakad kinabukasan, kung hindi, yang pwet mo ang paduduguin ng burat ko.
Prey001: Sex na tayo haha.
Darkstar: Hahaha. Antay ka lang, bibitinin muna kita para palaban ka pag nagkantutan tayo.
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Okay, I'll stop there. I could be kinkier considering how bareback porn - where the actors really shoot their load inside their partner's hole - gives me a boner.
Of course there are limitations when it comes to teasing and doing the things I say in a game of provocation. I am still bound by responsibilities, which I've learned from reading people's thoughts here and elsewhere. Bottom line is, I need to constantly check (and suppress) my carnal leanings for I know that after it's done comes the long period of grieving.
For my other sides have learned that nothing fulfilling comes after a mind-blowing casual sexual encounter.
Even if it's a very intimate threesome with two very masculine top guys, which will forever remain my ultimate but very elusive sextrip.
So there goes my demons running wild within the confines of Mugenblog. As the saying goes, better express one's deadly thoughts than doing it with a stranger, for what has happened can never be undone. March has always been the month of beginnings and the month of conclusions for me.
Whatever path I take must still lead to something profound and constructive.
And though there are times I let go of my inhibitions - like I am doing for this entry, it is my hope that when the real kinkiness of Darkstar comes in, it will be exercised and performed with boundless lust and so full of love with someone who is equally creative, and mightily cunning and twice as aggressive as my potentials reveal.
I am willing to wait for him to come.
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Hubby003: Ahhh malapit na ako hon!!
Mugen: Ako rin puputok na. Shit galing mo talaga.
Hubby003: Saan ko ipuputok?
Mugen: Sa loob. Gawa tayo ng baby.
Hubby003: Ulol. Hahaha.
Mugen: Gusto ko lalaki. Para puwede ko sunduin sa school. Tapos makikipag-sapakan ako sa tatay ng bully. Daddy rin ako ah!
Hubby003: Hahaha...
Mugen Bilisan mo ahhh!
Hubby003: Heto na... Heto na... Kiss nga kita.
Mugen: Fuck, im cumming. Sabay tayo. Mmmmm..
Hubby003: Here it goes!!! Shit! Shit! Shit!
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