hey
Joms | Mugen says:
uy!
pman™ ck says:
di ka namamansin
Joms | Mugen says:
nahihiya ako sayo eh.
pman™ ck says:
asus.. wala na yun no
Joms | Mugen says:
hehe
pman™ ck says:
just want to forget everything and start a new life
Joms | Mugen says:
why do you have to forget?
pman™ ck says:
just that so.. i know myself ganun talaga ko.. ayoko ng mga pangit na happenings
Joms | Mugen says:
to tell you honestly
Joms | Mugen says:
i still remember
Joms | Mugen says:
not the bad parts
Joms | Mugen says:
but the best ones.
pman™ ck says:
okay.. i see
Joms | Mugen says:
but you said it. Im cool with everything.
Joms | Mugen says:
i just dont know how to approach you
pman™ ck says:
i see.. i just dont want someone to be attach[ed] to me that much (tama ba grammar? lol kelangan ko na ata english 101) haha
pman™ ck says:
im better of alone like what i said
Joms | Mugen says:
thats what ive figured out.
pman™ ck says:
yea.. ayoko feelings involve
Joms | Mugen says:
you have to understand that its how i show my appreciation
Joms | Mugen says:
no feelings involved, as you have percieved it.
Joms | Mugen says:
its my curse, i've always been misunderstood.
Joms | Mugen says:
even in my straight times. Chicks, guys
pman™ ck says:
hmm.. okay i do understand somehow
Joms | Mugen says:
they thought what i show is something more
pman™ ck says:
yea
Joms | Mugen says:
until now, even females think ive got hots for them for being so protective.
Joms | Mugen says:
pero its just part of my nurturing side.
pman™ ck says:
i see..
pman™ ck says:
but to top it all.. its not about it..
i somehow found out that theres something more
pman™ ck says:
about the rumors
Joms | Mugen says:
what?
pman™ ck says:
close ka kasi sa mga taong close mo e.. that triggers it all
Joms | Mugen says:
i dont clearly see what you mean
Joms | Mugen says:
pero i would take it as is.
Joms | Mugen says:
whatever what you said.
pman™ ck says:
wait lang heh
Joms | Mugen says:
sure
pman™ ck says:
di ako galit about everything.. dun lang sa mga gumagawa ng usap tungkol sakin.. well anyway di rin naman ako galit sa kanila.. in fact wala ako pakialam as u can see.. kahit marami nagpaparinig
Joms | Mugen says:
ako rin
Joms | Mugen says:
i mean.
Joms | Mugen says:
i just figured out
Joms | Mugen says:
it would happen
Joms | Mugen says:
with the way how i treat those who are close to me
pman™ ck says:
ah i see
pman™ ck says:
hehe
Joms | Mugen says:
so hayun.
Joms | Mugen says:
rumors are bound to happen
Joms | Mugen says:
so sakin balewala na yun. Those who spread it. bahala na sila.
Joms | Mugen says:
let them speculate with all my activities.
pman™ ck says:
okay
Joms | Mugen says:
just to let you know. whatever that happened. I never saw any bad blood between us
Joms | Mugen says:
the memories of friendship is still strong that it weathered everything
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After six months, the cold spell is finally over. It was he who approached, and being the receptive receiver, I let his communication through, so that once and for all, the words left unsaid would finally be spoken.
I remember telling Macoy last night how things, that once preoccupied my thoughts had wore off with time. To quote what I've said. "I see things coming to an end, but if time comes he needs my backing, I'd most likely come to his side."
Who would have thought that it will be a sign of the things to come.
So after the closure is over, what now?
Move on, normalize things as it was?
In all honesty, I see this moment as a turning point, not only with regards to my floor relations but this moment is also a vindication of my firm belief that closure between broken people is possible. I do not see things improving overnight but rest assured, this is a beginning. Whatever feelings I harbored before had long been erased, swept away like the grains of sand in a windy desert. But like the windswept sands that was brought elsewhere, at least, I can finally get myself together to focus on other emotional entanglements. Mami was right when she told me this piece of advice when I was heavily devastated a long time ago.
"Things will pass, like they always do."
Yes it did. Searching within, I do not have to prove things anymore. Finally it's over.
I know we're cool.
I remember telling Macoy last night how things, that once preoccupied my thoughts had wore off with time. To quote what I've said. "I see things coming to an end, but if time comes he needs my backing, I'd most likely come to his side."
Who would have thought that it will be a sign of the things to come.
So after the closure is over, what now?
Move on, normalize things as it was?
In all honesty, I see this moment as a turning point, not only with regards to my floor relations but this moment is also a vindication of my firm belief that closure between broken people is possible. I do not see things improving overnight but rest assured, this is a beginning. Whatever feelings I harbored before had long been erased, swept away like the grains of sand in a windy desert. But like the windswept sands that was brought elsewhere, at least, I can finally get myself together to focus on other emotional entanglements. Mami was right when she told me this piece of advice when I was heavily devastated a long time ago.
"Things will pass, like they always do."
Yes it did. Searching within, I do not have to prove things anymore. Finally it's over.
I know we're cool.
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