Monday, June 7, 2010

The Beautiful Letdown


The Social Experiments are now complete. One last eyeball and I'd begin the countdown to the deletion of my Planet Romeo account.

A Social Experiment Pt. 4
May 28, 2010


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Sabi niya sa text message na pink blouse at blue skirt ang kanyang suot. Adik talaga ang ka-meet up ko ngunit hindi ako nagpatalo. Reply ko naman na naka backless serpentine gown ako na may fuchsia Kashmir sa leeg. First time namin manood ng movie na magkasama kaya imagine na lang kung totoo talaga ang mga get-up namin. One-way talaga ang kalalabasan. Usapan ay walang palitan ng face-pic habang magkausap sa Planet Romeo bago magkita, kaya't laking gulat ko nang malaman na yung morenong bansot subalit balingkinitan ang katawan na nagtetext malapit sa railings na katapat ng mga sinehan ang akin palang katagpo.



Habang nagde-decide ng movie na papanoorin, sabi ko na mag Shrek Forever After na lang kami. Gusto ko kasing matawa at the same time ay para maging relax ang mood ko habang may kasama. Hindi naman ako nahirapang kumbinsihin ang ka-eyeball ko. Gusto daw niya ng something light sa halip na manood ng Robin Hood at Prince of Persia na medyo seryoso ang tema.

Umupo kami sa pinakataas na row ng movie theater sa kadahilanang hindi ko na kinulayan pa. Nakakahiya rin kasi dahil libre niya ang ticket at wala namang flirty talk na nangyari sa aming dalawa. Matapos ang trailer ng The Last Airbender, nakita ko sa kanyang mga mata ang pagkamangha sa special effects ng movie. Para lang siyang bata. Lalo na doon sa final battle scene kung saan lalamunin ng tubig ang mga kalaban ni Aang.

"Sana mapanood rin natin yan," bulong ko sa aking katabi na tila naging dahilan upang lumitaw ang smiley face sa kanyang mukha. Bago magsimula ang palabas ay lihim na inabot niya ang kamay nito sa akin. Hindi ako nagdalawang isip iabot ang sa akin dahil gusto ko rin naman ang balak niya mangyari.

Naglapat ang aming mga daliri.

Mahigpit ang kapit nito.

"It feels good dude. Don't let go" Ang nasabi ko sa kanya

At sa buong panahong pinapatawa kami ni Shrek, Donkey, Puss at Fiona ay hindi siya bumitaw sa kanyang pagkakahawak.



Marami pa ang nangyari noong gabi ng una naming meet-up. Nilibre ko siya ng Chao Fan meal sa Chowking. Naghati kami sa Garlic Kangkong na aking snack upang siya ay sabayan. Inikot namin ang Ortigas Center upang magkuwentuhan tungkol sa kanya-kanyang buhay at hinintay siyang makasakay ng G-Liner sa tabi ng POEA patungong Kanluran kung saan siya nakatira.

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It was our first meet-up and it didn't end there. We watched another movie in less than a week, sent text messages every night just to check if the other gets home. He would ask for a hug, which I would send through virtual motions. And there were even talks of future meet-ups the next time a good movie gets to be shown on theaters.

I have always believed in the fantasy he created. It was the air I breathed for almost a week. And just when I had lost my will to fight - to welcome other souls - and focus on what the one was trying to build.

Just when I was ready to open the doors to my home, and probably even there, in the organ beneath my chest,

he cease making contact and then suddenly, deleted his Planet Romeo account for reasons I will never know.



10 comments:

anteros' dominion said...

KAYA pala ganun yung tweet mo...

SOLTERO said...

i was hoping for a really great ending while i was reading this...you still have his number, ryt? it won't hurt if you ask the reason he suddenly left u hanging..
(i have done that to some,and i realize it's so not fair)

Alterjon said...

yeah.. if he's worth the mile, run for him.

Guyrony said...

And just like that, you were left hanging by a deep ravine.

Hugs to you.

~Carrie~ said...

He's probably deleted the account to make a new one. Prepaid mobile numbers are very disposable. Sorry sa panggatong pero being realistic Lang.

Andaming players sa mundo. I hate them! I hate them! Chos

eon said...

what the hell? oh well, guess he isn't that interested. or he found someone else more interesting.

Anonymous said...

dont worry dude, may dadating n mas ok dyan. d sya worth it kung iniwan k ng ganyan.

unknown_danger

Désolé Boy said...

(((((Mu[g]en))))

masakit maiwan..mas masakit maghintay...

dark_knight said...

i feel for yu

daniel said...

I see a strong love connection hehehe : ) Goodluck sis' : )