So that is how things have ended for Kitsune at Club Bath, Macoy, of whom you are an inspiration for his debut at the bath house scene. "For the first time," he told me. "I can bypass the dance floor or the chat rooms, if and ever I would need a place to run away and hide."
Like what Kitsune claimed in his story, his first time was a flop. Nevertheless, his failure meant that he wouldn't have to worry making some kills again. In a time of great cynicism, one less casualty meant that there is still hope to nurture his ideal and romantic side; that not all pain can be eased away by a night's carnal abandonment.
However, the story never ended there. Kitsune, in his blinded restlessness, continued to prowl the dense and pretentious jungles of online communities and chat rooms in search for his prey. His approach was deliberate. It was driven by a desire to get back at things that were deprived of him in the past few weeks.
Yet fate intervened again in favor of his better angels. In his darkest hours, it was either he was rejected completely by others or he was the one rejecting strangers around him. Everything was just a mere game for Kitsune and despite harboring ill feelings to those who deceived him, he never dwelt on it. He continued to prowl in the darkness until there was no more land to move.
In Kitsune's search for his prey, it lead him to a spot where he was forced to accept the truth about his spiraling emotional situation and how it lead him to look for happiness elsewhere. Despite how uncertain and double-bladed happiness was for him, an emotional hop from person to person lead him to endure the cold rebellion he waged against his significant other. Kitsune, after all, was a fox who never faced his tribulations squarely.
June ends and his search eventually exhausted him. Lately, he still explore the jungles, which had been his secret hideaway for quite sometime. But after a two-minute stand-off with his other half lead to a brief truce and reconciliation between them, he realized that feelings spent elsewhere is bound to end in obscurity. He knew where his heart will always be bounded, and to lend it to someone else - only to get it back after things turn better for Kitsune would be utterly unfair to the one who briefly kept his heart for him.
Such realization was the reason for his complete turnaround now that a full month has come to a perfect circle.
And like the proverbial egg in which all things began. Kitsune will start the new moon void of traces of the past. Gone are the flirtmates, textmates and those who have briefly crossed his murky path during the last month. Nothing will be retained so that there will never be a reason for him to look back and regret.
Stories end when a new one begins. Life is like a long novel full of many episodes and story arcs which defines our main character's humanity. Kitsune's journey while brief and engrossing, ends for now. In his place, takes the story of Mugen and his unique interpretation of life. At the end of things, we are not judged by how we messed up in order to reach a realization.
We are judged by how we have managed to overcome such mess and ended up being a better person, when light draws near into our lives.
Like what Kitsune claimed in his story, his first time was a flop. Nevertheless, his failure meant that he wouldn't have to worry making some kills again. In a time of great cynicism, one less casualty meant that there is still hope to nurture his ideal and romantic side; that not all pain can be eased away by a night's carnal abandonment.
However, the story never ended there. Kitsune, in his blinded restlessness, continued to prowl the dense and pretentious jungles of online communities and chat rooms in search for his prey. His approach was deliberate. It was driven by a desire to get back at things that were deprived of him in the past few weeks.
Yet fate intervened again in favor of his better angels. In his darkest hours, it was either he was rejected completely by others or he was the one rejecting strangers around him. Everything was just a mere game for Kitsune and despite harboring ill feelings to those who deceived him, he never dwelt on it. He continued to prowl in the darkness until there was no more land to move.
In Kitsune's search for his prey, it lead him to a spot where he was forced to accept the truth about his spiraling emotional situation and how it lead him to look for happiness elsewhere. Despite how uncertain and double-bladed happiness was for him, an emotional hop from person to person lead him to endure the cold rebellion he waged against his significant other. Kitsune, after all, was a fox who never faced his tribulations squarely.
June ends and his search eventually exhausted him. Lately, he still explore the jungles, which had been his secret hideaway for quite sometime. But after a two-minute stand-off with his other half lead to a brief truce and reconciliation between them, he realized that feelings spent elsewhere is bound to end in obscurity. He knew where his heart will always be bounded, and to lend it to someone else - only to get it back after things turn better for Kitsune would be utterly unfair to the one who briefly kept his heart for him.
Such realization was the reason for his complete turnaround now that a full month has come to a perfect circle.
And like the proverbial egg in which all things began. Kitsune will start the new moon void of traces of the past. Gone are the flirtmates, textmates and those who have briefly crossed his murky path during the last month. Nothing will be retained so that there will never be a reason for him to look back and regret.
Stories end when a new one begins. Life is like a long novel full of many episodes and story arcs which defines our main character's humanity. Kitsune's journey while brief and engrossing, ends for now. In his place, takes the story of Mugen and his unique interpretation of life. At the end of things, we are not judged by how we messed up in order to reach a realization.
We are judged by how we have managed to overcome such mess and ended up being a better person, when light draws near into our lives.
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