Cycle

I am quite impressed at how you managed to pull the strings for him to choose you over your closer rival. Your hunting skills were exceptional and the rewards of paying close attention to your prey's soft spots has returned huge dividends.

We know he deserves it and on your part, regrets would be minimal.

Patira ka ba naman sa kasundo mo sa pag-iisip, ewan ko lang kung hindi solb-solb ka sa pagbalik mo sa bahay.

So how were you able to catch his attention?

Read his profile carefully. Pictures are fine but what appeals to you are words following his introduction. He is romantic. The profile tells it. Someone who finds bliss chasing sunsets or gazing at the stars is a giveaway. A guy who longs to have kids, prefers getting hugs and kisses while having a steamy intercourse, and enjoys traveling around the country to explore and learn says everything. More than his average looks, he perfectly complements the person you are searching for.

Even if that person exists only for a brief period.

Past forward an hour after sending him a private message on your favorite chat room, the hook-up was a done deal. You sealed the agreement while engaging him in a sensible chat over YM. You said words he needed to hear and gave assurances that your performance would be something out of the ordinary. "I'd rather get laid with someone who shares some similarities with me than doing it with a stranger out of a mindless booty call," you say. He bought your thoughts and readied himself for your arrival.

Pinalibog mo rin kasi siya.

And like ancient instincts reasserting itself in time of need, you hailed a cab, went to his place, greeted him outside the door, entered his home, made out in the sofa, took off his shirt and his shorts, gave a head to his skin-full of gearstick, hurled your clothes on the armchair, spread your legs for him to drill a hole, made out again as he tried to penetrate your base, told him how great what he's doing, even if you're wincing from the pain, begged him to pump deeper and deeper until he tells you that he's about to come - to your relief, waited for his orgasm while trying to have yours, another tongue-darting action before he throws away the rubber, a yosi break, a cuddle while watching a movie on cable, a small talk about the act you did, and then you leave his place wondering if there would be a next time.

But you sense perfectly that it will be the last.

Two months of waiting and the full circle ends here. Feeling the lingering warmth of his lips on yours while writing this confession, you know its all worth it. Marami ka ring pinaasa sa chat, at sa telepono, pero siguro ay tama lang na siya ang iyong pinili.

Nag-enjoy ka naman siyang ka-sex.

At trip-trip lang naman ito kahit sabihin mong maari kang mahulog sa kanya.

Ending this entry, I suggest you move on and never text back. Take out your MIRc from the desktop, as well as the phone numbers on your phone in hopes that the boys who owned them will be the first to hook up with you.

Foster closer ties with friends,

and shield your heart from ripples of a possible attachment.

I know this will hurt a little, I'm sure it would.

But remember Knox Galen, this happens all the time. Learn.

You choose not to end this never-ending cycle after all.