Saturday, January 23, 2010

A Full Circle






Ngunit habang kami ay nagsasayaw sa dilim
at magkayakap ng mahigpit. Sa kanyang mga
ngiti at pagkuyumos ng aming mga labi ay
ramdam ko ang kanyang saya sa
pagkakaroon ng kasama.

Kahit pa ito'y isang pangmagdamagan lang.




Darkstar: Joms ang tanga tanga mo talaga!

Joms: Alam ko, and I am so proud of my stupidity.

Mugen: Haha Pucha under one minute, nakahanap ka kaagad ng karir pagkapasok mo sa loob ng Che'Lu. Sinong mag-aakalang ganito ka na kabangis ngayon.

Joms: Kaya nga matindi rin ang control ko eh. Alam ko kung ano ang potentials ko... matagal na.

Pulsar: Ano ba talaga ang nangyari. Magkwento ka naman for the sake na may pag-uusapan tayo.

Joms: Ganito yun mga parekoy. Sinamahan ko yung mga tropa ko mag-Malate kasi daw matagal na silang hindi nakakabalik dun. Nagmagandang-loob lang naman ako dahil sa kanilang lahat, ako lang talaga ang hindi nawalan ng connection sa lugar. In fact, karamihan nga ng mga ka-generation namin ay bathouse at massage parlors na ang pinupuntahan eh. Just for old time sake, I went to Malate and brought them with me.

Pulsar: Okay. Bakit ka sinabihan ng tanga ni Darkstar?

Joms: As usual, balik ako sa dating hang-out. Nagkataon naman na habang papunta kami sa dance floor ay may na-ispatan akong lalaking pasok na pasok sa trip ko.

Mugen: Nagkataon na trip rin niya si Joms. We could see it in his eyes.

Pulsar: Mind describing this guy to me?

Joms: Ordinary guy lang siya sa standards ng marami. Mga 5'6 ang tangkad, payat at kayumanggi ang kulay ng balat. Naka-cap siya na white at yellow ang suot niyang polo.

Pulsar: So anong nakita mo dito sa binata at bakit mo siya nagustuhan?

Darkstar: Ako na ang sasagot para kay Joms. Gaya ng mga natritripan niya, he stands out among the crowd. Mukhang sanggano. May goatie na, may soul patch pa sa mukha. Mapungay ang kanyang mga mata at sa tindig pa lang ay alam mong barako siya.

Mugen: Yeah. Rugged type ang gusto ni Joms eh, and he very much fitted into his ideal guy.

Pulsar: Gaya ni Bamboo-looking guy at ni boylet from last time?

Joms: Oo. Ewan ko ba bakit may fetish ako sa mga lalaki na mukhang muslim. Kulang na lang ay bentahan niya ako ng dibidi eh.

Darkstar: Matangos kasi ang ilong kaya ka baliw sa kanya.

Pulsar: So anong nangyari pagkatapos.

Joms: Obviously gusto namin ang isa't isa. Pero dude, I swear, hindi ako sasama ang loob kung mapupunta siya kay Nate, yung isa kong tropa. Nung una nga, sila ang gusto kong i-pair eh.

Darkstar: Kaso mo, kay Joms siya pumunta. Si Joms rin ang unang nagpakita ng interest sa kanya.

Mugen: To continue the story, nagsayaw sila for around two hours. Walang palitan ng partner yun ha. At mind you, close dancing ito. I wouldn't be surprised if they brushed each other's skin dahil dun.

Darkstar: Which is what they actually did. Grabe. Ang sarap sana halikan ng chest nung guy. Balbon kasi. Arghhh!! Bakit ba kasi ngayon pa naging torpe si Joms eh.

Pulsar: Is that all that happened?

Joms: Ah eh..

Darkstar: To continue the story. Masikip sa loob ng dance floor. Nagkataon na umatake na naman ang pagiging knight in shining armor nitong kupal nating kaibigan kaya hayun, feeling protected ang lalaki. Sa lapad ba naman ni Joms, literal na binakuran niya si binata habang sayaw lang ng sayaw ang lalaki. Naghubad pa nga siya ng damit eventually eh.

Mugen: Habang si Joms naman ang nalamog sa lahat ng mga dumaraan. Ewan ko na lang, if some guy did that to him, hindi rin ako magtataka na lumambot talaga ang puso niya sa taong ito.

Darkstar: Which I think is what really happened. Even toughies would appreciate being protected when they feel vulnerable. It's human nature.

Joms: How I wish someone would do that to me. Pero sadya atang ako ang laging mahilig tumapat sa line of fire eh.

Pulsar: Any violations you did? Tahimik si Dominus. Something naughty must have happened.

Joms: Ni-lips to lips ko yung guy. Masyadong tense ang aming sayawan eh, bumigay ako.

Darkstar: Ni-lips to lips nga, daig pa si Maria Clara sa pagiging mahinhin humalik. Haay.

Joms: Alam ko na hesitant siya sa kanyang gagawin. He's trying to show a very masculine image to everyone eh. Tingin mo ba, bakit naghubad ako ng damit kasabay niya nung nagsasayaw kami?

Pulsar: Bakit nga ba??

Joms: Dahil ayaw ko siyang mapag-isa. Isa pa, I don't want to appear na subordinate sa kanya no? Even if my chest, I think, is still sagging, my shoulders and my back could compensate for my shortcomings.

Pulsar: Now that we have established that something did happen, did it end up elsewhere?

Mugen: Unfortunately no.

Darkstar: Sayang. Chance ko na yun para may matikmang bago.


Under 1 Minute
April 26, 2008




The italics reveal the parallels between a guy I came across many years ago and a serendipitous encounter with someone on the dance floor last night. They have the same looks: They also share the same attitude, which, made it hard not to remember the one I deserted. He is missed, and in many nights I return to the same ground where we danced and kissed and cuddled before, it is my wish to see him again.

"Alam mo pare, parang na-meet na kita dati."

"Honga eh, ganun rin nararamdaman ko."



"Masaya ako at nakita kita dito." Finally he out blurted after we got comfortable with each other.

If reincarnation exists, this is the closest thing to ever feeling a deja-vu.

Two hours is a very short time to rekindle a bond. A night is not enough to know a person you once desired.

Breaking all rules of engagement.

And because of this human longing for someone to be with

after an eternity of searching.

I brought him home, finally, to sleep beside me.




20 comments:

E said...

hhhhaaaayyyy...who made those rules anyway LOL

Padsiefoot said...

Naalala ko bigla ang My Sassy Girl.

Manech said...

Hope it turns out for the best. Kinilig ako sobra. :)

Keeping my fingers crossed.

P.S.
Natawa ako dun sa bit about the Muslim-looking fetish.

red the mod said...

Fate, as always, defies reason and comprehension. She weaves our stories so intricately exquisite that the chaos we inhabit is the very pattern she strings. And the only predictable thing is her unpredictability. Cyclic and utterly lacking of trajectories, we muster her ploys one day at a time. Sometimes a hit, sometimes a miss.

I hope this one's a hit.

Times are changing. And change, despite our reservations, is always good. Because once we stagnate, we don't evolve, and our life will pass us by unknowingly. Noone wants that.

Galen said...

E:

Yan ang gusto ko sa iyo eh! You always shake the order of things. Hehehe

Padsiefoot:

Wala namang sex part yung My Sassy Girl diba? Lolz

Manech:

It's too early to tell. Singlehood had already taught me not to trust people around. :)

Galen said...

Red:

There are times the heart is willing but fate dictates a line of separation. In his case, his presence will buy me time.

A bittersweet time.

Manech said...

Galen,

That, I think, is something I will never learn. I always find myself expecting things a little too soon.

But, at least, you got some action. It's nice to get it every once in a while. Haha.

anteros' dominion said...

congrats and goodluck

Galen said...

Manech:

Trust me, I tried my best to avoid the action. I succeeded partially, but he was a little insistent on some things my human nature cannot deny. Haha.

Still the two-month rule takes effect.

Anteros:

Congrats para saan?

Padsiefoot said...

Naalala ko because the girl fell in love with Gyun-woo kasi kamukha ng ex nyang namatay (who happened to be Gyun-woo's cousin pala).

Malay mo magpinsan pala yung past guy mo tsaka yang ngayon. LOL ang liit lang talaga ng mundo.

anteros' dominion said...

dagdag sa listahan

good luck kasi sana worth it dalhin mo siya sa iyong tahanan

Galen said...

Anteros:

Yun nga problema. Worth it nga ba talaga? Nakaka-apat na akong take home simula nung break up.

Padsie:

Nosebleed ako. Hehehehe.

citybuoy said...

awww.. ang sweet nung ending.

bunwich said...

kinilig ba ako? but on the serious note, always enjoy the moment, worth it or not.. enjoy it.

Anonymous said...

para akong nagmo-monologue habang binabasa ko hahahahaha.

ang pasalubong sau ni santino andito pa sakin. naka 2 punta ka na dito di mo pa nakukuha pareho natin nakakalimutan. kaya eto i-comment ko na para di natin makalimutan hehehe.

-pilyo

BERNADETTE said...

lav et!!!

isang malaking check!

so ... maybe .. it really means that .... you are meant to ....

sleep beside each other ... *wink

BTW .. i love the word "serendipitous", for some unknown .. reason nagkagoosebumbs ako 'teh.

Galen said...

Citybuoy:

Masarap matulog ng may kayakap. Kahit wala na yung sex part, basta may kayakap.

Bunwich:

Moment lang talaga ang meron ako. Hehehe.

Galen said...

Pilyo:

Honga, lagi kong nakakalimutan eh. Pasensya na at nadadalaw ako sa iyong parlor na parang laging galing sa digmaan.

Actually, nahihiya akong hingin sa iyo. Lolz.

Sana may nomo-nomo tayo this week. Baka maisama ko siya.

Ate Berns:

Atey! Finally, nakita mo rin ang aking lungga! Serendipitious, mukhang imbento ko lang yung word na yun! Hahaha

Salamat sa pagbisita!

Mac Callister said...

bakit walang nangyari???sayang!

Galen said...

Mac:

Siyempre, may mang-iiwan pag nagkatirahan eh. LOL