Thursday, March 11, 2010

Serendra Boy






For until we decide to break free,
we will always be chasing someone else's dream.



A chat conversation:

[14:37] serendraboy: musta?
[14:38] souljacker: ayos lang
[14:38] souljacker: heto mag isa sa office
[14:38] souljacker: kamusta ka tol?
[14:38] serendraboy: o naman. bat mag isa ka dyan?
[14:38] serendraboy: ok
[14:39] souljacker: na late ako ng pasok kanina eh
[14:39] souljacker: hehehe
[14:39] souljacker: nasa valenzuela ka niyan?
[14:39] serendraboy: dito ako sa taguig
[14:39] souljacker: ah!
[14:40] souljacker: balita?
[14:40] serendraboy: wala naman gaano
[14:40] serendraboy: mejo busy ng kaunti
[14:40] serendraboy: kaw?
[14:40] souljacker: ayos lang
[14:40] souljacker: yung dati kong barkada sa office
[14:40] souljacker: ni train ko kanina
[14:40] souljacker: kamusta naman ate mo?
[14:42] serendraboy: ok naman
[14:42] serendraboy: musta work?
[14:42] souljacker: bored
[14:42] souljacker: chillax chillax lang
[14:42] souljacker: bakit mo natanong?
[14:42] souljacker: hehehehe
[14:43] serendraboy: wala lang
[14:44] souljacker: :)
[14:44] souljacker: napanood mo na yung alice in wonderland?
[14:44] serendraboy: di pa. nood kami mamya ng kapatid ko
[14:44] serendraboy: napanood mo na?
[14:45] souljacker: hindi pa nga eh
[14:45] souljacker: walang kasama
[14:45] serendraboy: sama mo mommy mo
[14:45] souljacker: honga no
[14:45] souljacker: great idea!
[14:45] souljacker: bahala na, nanghihinayan ako sa gastos eh
[14:45] souljacker: lol
[14:47] souljacker: ingay ingay dun sa AP Workout Thread
[14:48] serendraboy: hehehe.. heto nga binabasa ko eh.
[14:48] serendraboy: heheh
[14:48] souljacker: hehehe
[14:48] souljacker: hindi ako sasama dun sa GEB na pinopropose nung isa
[14:48] souljacker: kung alam ko lang, pormahan lang yun
[14:49] serendraboy: hahahha. yun naman talaga objective
[14:50] souljacker: depends...
[14:50] souljacker: maganda katawan mo
[14:50] souljacker: puputaktihin ka talaga
[14:50] serendraboy: hahahha
[14:51] serendraboy: pag marami kaseng masyado, mas nakakailang
[14:51] souljacker: yup
[14:51] souljacker: have you met someone new from pex?
[14:52] serendraboy: wala
[14:52] serendraboy: enjoy lang akong magbasa
[14:52] souljacker: hehehe
[14:52] serendraboy: pag nagka free time
[14:52] souljacker: sa AP naman
[14:53] souljacker: met someone
[14:53] serendraboy: kaw?
[14:53] souljacker: tapos
[14:53] souljacker: tinuruan ko lang mag work out.
[14:53] souljacker: so yun.
[14:53] serendraboy: hahaha
[14:53] souljacker: bakit ka tumawa?
[14:53] serendraboy: ok naman? ?
[14:53] serendraboy: mabait?
[14:53] souljacker: mabait kung sa mabait
[14:53] souljacker: pero yung intentions eh...
[14:53] souljacker: :)
[14:53] serendraboy: hahahah
[14:54] souljacker: malinaw naman ang usapan
[14:54] souljacker: no hanky panky.
[14:54] souljacker: so yun. sana may natutunan.
[14:54] souljacker: kasi nilibre niya ako ng entrance sa FF
[14:55] serendraboy: ah ok.
[14:55] serendraboy: natuto naman?
[14:55] souljacker: di ko sure
[14:55] souljacker: sabi niya mabigat yung free weights eh
[14:57] souljacker: tingnan mo to
[14:57] souljacker: http://tunaynalalake.blogspot.com/2010/03/muling-pinagtitibay-dota-di-tunay-na.html
[14:57] serendraboy: ano to?
[14:57] souljacker: haha buksan mo
[15:00] serendraboy: hehehe
[15:00] souljacker: lahat na lang
[15:00] souljacker: pinagdedebatehan kung tunay na lalaki o hindi
[15:00] souljacker: yung isa sa mga authors niyan classmate ko sa masters
[15:08] serendraboy: sige. offline na ako... alis lang ako
[15:08] serendraboy: ingat na lang
[15:08] souljacker: ingat ka [name of serendra boy]
[15:08] souljacker: babay



Minsan hindi ko alam kung bakit lagi niya akong kinakamusta.
Pero hindi naman niya ako kinukwentuhan.
Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit nag-eeffort akong mag-reach out
Samantalang hindi naman malinaw ang gusto kong mangyari.

Nakakaasar yung ganitong pakiramdam.
Pero kung iisipin ko kung paano ako magrestrain ng sarili,
at mang-iwan, matapos magpagamit at gamitin ang ka-trip,
Nakakamiss rin pala

Ang magkalihim na pagtingin sa iba.




7 comments:

red the mod said...

Because we want to feel human. Even if it means that we have to taste the bitterness of restraint, or be conflicted for control. We need it like poison. Saccharine and sultry, with a tart end note.

And we fight it, like its the only logical thing to do, to assert our control over our own leanings. Because whosoever cracks first, gives in, loses. And we, men that we are, don't ever wanna lose.

Although secretly, we want to finally be acquainted with that one who can pacify our urges, make sense of our impulsiveness, and bridle our behemoth egos.

isipipis said...

kinikilig ako... pero may sad twist. hay, lagi nalang may ganun... may halong pait.

anyhow, joms, do you have plans to enter the academe after your MA? ^_^

JR said...

Awww...lumalandi lol...kelan mo kaya ako matuturuan na mag.....gym? ;-)

Galen said...

JR:

Haahaa! Nasa LA ka eh. Paano kita matuturuan?

Sige post ako ng ibang program ko sa gym, kung yun talaga ang hanap mo.

Carl:

Wala pa akong balak mag academe eh. Pero sa ginagawa kong trabaho sa office, mukhang patungo ako sa direksyon na yun.

Galen said...

Red:

What's sad about this love game is that I'm on the losing end. Attraction was never mutual to begin with (well, it was he who showed the intentions, because I would never-ever start something such as kissing a guy I have no chemistry)

I guess this is one of those rare episodes where I get to consult what remains of my feelings, for in the days I am guarded, never would I let myself reveal such weakness.

But its good to feel. weak. It reminds me of my human frailty.

Menthos said...

the love game was, is, and will never be a mutual attraction to begin with. One will make the move because he/she is attracted to someone. Then someone notices that person. And that's the only time when both person will be attracted to each other.

But just to answer the question kung bakit xa nangangamusta pero hindi nagkukwento? Kasi gusto lang nya malaman na andyan ka lagi para sa kanya. Base from experience yan :D

Galen said...

Menthos:

Thank you. At the very least, I have a space in his life. Whether for good or bad, I am happy. I'm the kind of person who disconnects the moment I'm over with a guy.

It's a sad thought however that when he finds someone better (looking) I'm sure I'd be discarded, until that guy breaks his heart.