Bakit kaya dumarami ang mga PLU kahit hindi sila nanganganak?
- Anon
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[11:32] MuGen: may experience ka na ba dati?
[11:32] MuGen: i mean
[11:32] MuGen: nasubukan mo na
[11:32] MuGen: sa lalaki?
[11:34] kidblogger001: ha? bakit?
[11:34] kidblogger001: mu natanong?
[11:34] kidblogger001: muka ba?
[11:36] MuGen: yung tingin ko?
[11:37] kidblogger001: yea?
---
We agreed to see each other a few days after our first meeting in a grand eye ball.
The grand eye ball was my first. Organized by the founders of the first gay and lesbian community in Pinoyexchange, it set the standards for all the gatherings among non-straight groups in the online forum. I remember showing up in my school uniform that night in Malate. The campaign drive for the student council elections was in its final swing and meetings after meetings took what remained of my social life.
Despite the busy schedule, my inner sexual conflict was gaining prominence among the things I thought beyond politics. I just confessed my bisexual tendencies in the same forum a few weeks before and the invitation to join the gathering sent to me hereafter was too tempting not to ignore.
So I made an excuse to my other colleagues who were still in the middle of a heated debate within the campus just to satisfy my curiosity. I rode a jeep in Dapitan going to Taft Avenue; walked a few blocks from the main road until reaching the corner of Nakpil and Orosa streets; and entered a lesbian bar which would close down before the year ended and open again as the infamous Red Banana, which was known for its cum-drenched dark room upstairs until it was closed down by the authorities several years ago.
The place where my life as a non-straight started is now occupied by the much tamer O-Bar.
---
[11:37] MuGen: curious ka eh
[11:37] MuGen: so mukhang may karanasan ka na
[11:38] MuGen: tropa tayo dude ha
[11:38] MuGen: alam mo naman
[11:38] MuGen: preference ko diba
[11:39] kidblogger001: anu nga ba?
[11:39] MuGen: hindi ako straight.
[11:39] kidblogger001: confirm ko lanf,
[11:40] MuGen: so bago ka mag trip
[11:40] MuGen: itanong mo muna sa akin
[11:40] MuGen: at baka
[11:40] MuGen: ma-confuse ka
[11:40] MuGen: pag tumagal
[11:41] kidblogger001: ma confuse san?
[11:41] MuGen: haha
[11:41] MuGen: wala
---
"Hello! Si Endymionn ito, nandito na ako sa La Dida. Nasaan kayo?"
"Akyat ka lang. Nakaupo kami malapit sa CR."
I called the organizer using my mobile phone the moment I set foot inside the bar. These days, I would even leave a dance partner and walk as far away as I could just to call back my mother whenever she checks my whereabouts during my weekly night-outs. Finding the group wasn't difficult. Since it was a lesbian bar, there were only a handful of guys inside the place. I easily found them seated near the bathroom.
What greeted me was a bunch of men and women who happens to be all non-straights. Most of them were effeminate gays in their mid and early twenties, while a couple of masculine ones were seated next to the window. The rest were lipstick and butch lesbians dancing next to our table. Had I not been exposed to the same kind of people within my political party, I would have never lasted an hour in their company.
Like all first timers, I had my tense moments too. I kept on looking at faces of people around me out of fear that someone might know who I am. You see, I was technically straight. I had no experience with another guy; I was quite well-known in my campus; and my circle of friends inside the classroom were straight men who enjoyed bashing gay people. It would be a great embarrassment had someone from school caught me hanging out in such queer places.
The only gay people I knew were the flamboyant and screaming ones from my college. The concept of discreetness hasn't entered my consciousness yet and the thought of seeing a masculine guy who happens to like another guy was a stuff of legend I was trying to prove to exist. It was the reason I dared show up in the company of gay people. Somehow, it got so cramped inside my closet that the need to reach out and connect with men who shares my affinity became a need I could not resist.
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[11:42] kidblogger001: so anu ka?
[11:42] kidblogger001: silahis?
[11:42] kidblogger001: ganun?
[11:42] MuGen: uu
[11:42] MuGen: [insert smiley face here]
[11:42] kidblogger001: or ung bimale?
[11:43] MuGen: pareho lang yun
[11:43] kidblogger001: ah. preho lang ba yun.
[11:43] kidblogger001: t, b, o v?
[11:45] MuGen: nyemas
[11:45] MuGen: dami mong alam ah
[11:45] MuGen: alam mo ibig sabihin ng t b o v?
[11:47] kidblogger001: top, bottom, versa?
[11:47] MuGen: sino nagturo sayo?
[11:47] MuGen: straight ka ba?
[11:47] kidblogger001: ako.
[11:47] MuGen: confused?
[11:48] kidblogger001: confused?
[11:48] kidblogger001: indi ah.
[11:48] kidblogger001: sure ako.
[11:48] kidblogger001: 100%
[11:48] MuGen: straight.
[11:48] kidblogger001: BI
[11:48] kidblogger001: [insert smiley face here]
[11:49] MuGen: gulo mo bro.
[11:49] MuGen: haha
[11:49] MuGen: wag mong piliting basahin kita
[11:49] kidblogger001: panong basahin?
[11:49] kidblogger001: ayaw mu maniwala?
[11:50] MuGen: na bisexual ka?
[11:51] kidblogger001: oo?
---
"Hi, my name is Joms. My PEx handle is Endymionn." They all nodded to acknowledge my presence.
Like in all traditional grand eyeballs, there is a part where the host would introduce the new arrival to everyone in the group. First to be introduced were the lesbians who were grinding to the sound of Joyrise before they were interrupted by one of the organizers. They were all pretty, very feminine and if not for their admission of sexuality, one would never realize that they were actually boob-diggers.
Next were the professional gay men from the "straight-acting" group. They were men, yes, but straight-acting, I doubt. Nevertheless, they all welcomed me with open-arms despite showing some stiffness and distance when I tried to reach out to them. I sat in their table realizing that I cannot relate to the musicals, fine dining places and pop culture they talked among themselves.
The last to be introduced were the "bisexuals." They were the ones I'm acquainted with in the forum. All of them were students like me. We came from different universities who have different views about sexuality. Among all of them, I think I was the only rookie. Most of them were already quite comfortable with themselves and their reasons for attending were far different from mine.
In those days, my favorite opening lines were "kelan mo na realize na hindi ka pala straight?" or "when was the last time you had a girlfriend?" Those who got fed up by those questions raised by the uninstructed ones like me would just raise their eyebrows, smile and then hesitantly give their answers. After satisfying your curiosity, they would return to their hunting grounds in search for their potential lovers. Since I wasn't really a catch and most people found me aloof, if not too intimidating, I was left in the corner near the windows looking at the group of people assembled on the street below.
That was until I met someone who happened to share the same wavelength as mine.
His PEx handle was FireArcher and before the week was over, he would eventually be the one to initiate me to the ways of being a non-straight.
---
[11:52] MuGen: thanks sa pagtitiwala
[11:52] MuGen: actually basa ko naman eh
[11:52] kidblogger001: eh yun nmn pla eh.
[11:53] kidblogger001: haha.
[11:53] kidblogger001: ngayun lang?
[11:53] MuGen: nung
[11:54] MuGen: sinabi mo sakin
[11:54] MuGen: yung q circle
[11:55] MuGen: [insert blog entry link here]
[11:56] MuGen: tsaka yan
[11:57] kidblogger001: haha. mahilig lang tlga ako sa mga ganyan.
[11:57] kidblogger001: lols.
[11:57] kidblogger001: i mean sa mga bakla.
[11:57] MuGen: hehe
[11:57] MuGen: nakikisama ako sa mas effem sa akin
[11:57] MuGen: pag kaibigan lang
[11:57] MuGen: pero pag medyo
[11:57] MuGen: lumalandi
[11:57] MuGen: defensive na ako.
[11:58] kidblogger001: haha.
[11:58] MuGen: parang gaya sa gateway mo
[11:58] MuGen: mabait ka pa
[11:59] kidblogger001: first time ko nmn kasi tlga un.
[11:59] kidblogger001: kaya di ko lam gagawin ko.
[11:59] kidblogger001: tska isa pa.
[11:59] MuGen: anu?
[11:59] kidblogger001: di ko trip s i kuya.
[11:59] kidblogger001: lols
[11:59] MuGen: hehehe
[11:59] MuGen: pero kung trip mo
[11:59] MuGen: sasama ka?
---
-tobecontinued-
- Anon
---
[11:32] MuGen: may experience ka na ba dati?
[11:32] MuGen: i mean
[11:32] MuGen: nasubukan mo na
[11:32] MuGen: sa lalaki?
[11:34] kidblogger001: ha? bakit?
[11:34] kidblogger001: mu natanong?
[11:34] kidblogger001: muka ba?
[11:36] MuGen: yung tingin ko?
[11:37] kidblogger001: yea?
---
We agreed to see each other a few days after our first meeting in a grand eye ball.
The grand eye ball was my first. Organized by the founders of the first gay and lesbian community in Pinoyexchange, it set the standards for all the gatherings among non-straight groups in the online forum. I remember showing up in my school uniform that night in Malate. The campaign drive for the student council elections was in its final swing and meetings after meetings took what remained of my social life.
Despite the busy schedule, my inner sexual conflict was gaining prominence among the things I thought beyond politics. I just confessed my bisexual tendencies in the same forum a few weeks before and the invitation to join the gathering sent to me hereafter was too tempting not to ignore.
So I made an excuse to my other colleagues who were still in the middle of a heated debate within the campus just to satisfy my curiosity. I rode a jeep in Dapitan going to Taft Avenue; walked a few blocks from the main road until reaching the corner of Nakpil and Orosa streets; and entered a lesbian bar which would close down before the year ended and open again as the infamous Red Banana, which was known for its cum-drenched dark room upstairs until it was closed down by the authorities several years ago.
The place where my life as a non-straight started is now occupied by the much tamer O-Bar.
---
[11:37] MuGen: curious ka eh
[11:37] MuGen: so mukhang may karanasan ka na
[11:38] MuGen: tropa tayo dude ha
[11:38] MuGen: alam mo naman
[11:38] MuGen: preference ko diba
[11:39] kidblogger001: anu nga ba?
[11:39] MuGen: hindi ako straight.
[11:39] kidblogger001: confirm ko lanf,
[11:40] MuGen: so bago ka mag trip
[11:40] MuGen: itanong mo muna sa akin
[11:40] MuGen: at baka
[11:40] MuGen: ma-confuse ka
[11:40] MuGen: pag tumagal
[11:41] kidblogger001: ma confuse san?
[11:41] MuGen: haha
[11:41] MuGen: wala
---
"Hello! Si Endymionn ito, nandito na ako sa La Dida. Nasaan kayo?"
"Akyat ka lang. Nakaupo kami malapit sa CR."
I called the organizer using my mobile phone the moment I set foot inside the bar. These days, I would even leave a dance partner and walk as far away as I could just to call back my mother whenever she checks my whereabouts during my weekly night-outs. Finding the group wasn't difficult. Since it was a lesbian bar, there were only a handful of guys inside the place. I easily found them seated near the bathroom.
What greeted me was a bunch of men and women who happens to be all non-straights. Most of them were effeminate gays in their mid and early twenties, while a couple of masculine ones were seated next to the window. The rest were lipstick and butch lesbians dancing next to our table. Had I not been exposed to the same kind of people within my political party, I would have never lasted an hour in their company.
Like all first timers, I had my tense moments too. I kept on looking at faces of people around me out of fear that someone might know who I am. You see, I was technically straight. I had no experience with another guy; I was quite well-known in my campus; and my circle of friends inside the classroom were straight men who enjoyed bashing gay people. It would be a great embarrassment had someone from school caught me hanging out in such queer places.
The only gay people I knew were the flamboyant and screaming ones from my college. The concept of discreetness hasn't entered my consciousness yet and the thought of seeing a masculine guy who happens to like another guy was a stuff of legend I was trying to prove to exist. It was the reason I dared show up in the company of gay people. Somehow, it got so cramped inside my closet that the need to reach out and connect with men who shares my affinity became a need I could not resist.
---
[11:42] kidblogger001: so anu ka?
[11:42] kidblogger001: silahis?
[11:42] kidblogger001: ganun?
[11:42] MuGen: uu
[11:42] MuGen: [insert smiley face here]
[11:42] kidblogger001: or ung bimale?
[11:43] MuGen: pareho lang yun
[11:43] kidblogger001: ah. preho lang ba yun.
[11:43] kidblogger001: t, b, o v?
[11:45] MuGen: nyemas
[11:45] MuGen: dami mong alam ah
[11:45] MuGen: alam mo ibig sabihin ng t b o v?
[11:47] kidblogger001: top, bottom, versa?
[11:47] MuGen: sino nagturo sayo?
[11:47] MuGen: straight ka ba?
[11:47] kidblogger001: ako.
[11:47] MuGen: confused?
[11:48] kidblogger001: confused?
[11:48] kidblogger001: indi ah.
[11:48] kidblogger001: sure ako.
[11:48] kidblogger001: 100%
[11:48] MuGen: straight.
[11:48] kidblogger001: BI
[11:48] kidblogger001: [insert smiley face here]
[11:49] MuGen: gulo mo bro.
[11:49] MuGen: haha
[11:49] MuGen: wag mong piliting basahin kita
[11:49] kidblogger001: panong basahin?
[11:49] kidblogger001: ayaw mu maniwala?
[11:50] MuGen: na bisexual ka?
[11:51] kidblogger001: oo?
---
"Hi, my name is Joms. My PEx handle is Endymionn." They all nodded to acknowledge my presence.
Like in all traditional grand eyeballs, there is a part where the host would introduce the new arrival to everyone in the group. First to be introduced were the lesbians who were grinding to the sound of Joyrise before they were interrupted by one of the organizers. They were all pretty, very feminine and if not for their admission of sexuality, one would never realize that they were actually boob-diggers.
Next were the professional gay men from the "straight-acting" group. They were men, yes, but straight-acting, I doubt. Nevertheless, they all welcomed me with open-arms despite showing some stiffness and distance when I tried to reach out to them. I sat in their table realizing that I cannot relate to the musicals, fine dining places and pop culture they talked among themselves.
The last to be introduced were the "bisexuals." They were the ones I'm acquainted with in the forum. All of them were students like me. We came from different universities who have different views about sexuality. Among all of them, I think I was the only rookie. Most of them were already quite comfortable with themselves and their reasons for attending were far different from mine.
In those days, my favorite opening lines were "kelan mo na realize na hindi ka pala straight?" or "when was the last time you had a girlfriend?" Those who got fed up by those questions raised by the uninstructed ones like me would just raise their eyebrows, smile and then hesitantly give their answers. After satisfying your curiosity, they would return to their hunting grounds in search for their potential lovers. Since I wasn't really a catch and most people found me aloof, if not too intimidating, I was left in the corner near the windows looking at the group of people assembled on the street below.
That was until I met someone who happened to share the same wavelength as mine.
His PEx handle was FireArcher and before the week was over, he would eventually be the one to initiate me to the ways of being a non-straight.
---
[11:52] MuGen: thanks sa pagtitiwala
[11:52] MuGen: actually basa ko naman eh
[11:52] kidblogger001: eh yun nmn pla eh.
[11:53] kidblogger001: haha.
[11:53] kidblogger001: ngayun lang?
[11:53] MuGen: nung
[11:54] MuGen: sinabi mo sakin
[11:54] MuGen: yung q circle
[11:55] MuGen: [insert blog entry link here]
[11:56] MuGen: tsaka yan
[11:57] kidblogger001: haha. mahilig lang tlga ako sa mga ganyan.
[11:57] kidblogger001: lols.
[11:57] kidblogger001: i mean sa mga bakla.
[11:57] MuGen: hehe
[11:57] MuGen: nakikisama ako sa mas effem sa akin
[11:57] MuGen: pag kaibigan lang
[11:57] MuGen: pero pag medyo
[11:57] MuGen: lumalandi
[11:57] MuGen: defensive na ako.
[11:58] kidblogger001: haha.
[11:58] MuGen: parang gaya sa gateway mo
[11:58] MuGen: mabait ka pa
[11:59] kidblogger001: first time ko nmn kasi tlga un.
[11:59] kidblogger001: kaya di ko lam gagawin ko.
[11:59] kidblogger001: tska isa pa.
[11:59] MuGen: anu?
[11:59] kidblogger001: di ko trip s i kuya.
[11:59] kidblogger001: lols
[11:59] MuGen: hehehe
[11:59] MuGen: pero kung trip mo
[11:59] MuGen: sasama ka?
---
-tobecontinued-
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