Friday, July 10, 2009

Open City




In war, in the event of the imminent capture of a city, the government/military structure of the nation that controls the city will sometimes declare it an open city, thus announcing that they have abandoned all defensive efforts. The attacking armies of the opposing military will then be expected not to bomb or otherwise attack the city, but simply march in. The concept aims at protecting the historic landmarks and civilians who remain from an unnecessary battle.

Wikipedia


How do one protect himself from the pressures of attachment? Does he need to openly tell the other of his romantic desires? Does he have to assert himself and make sure the other knows of his undying presence? Does he need to fling himself in some other guy's arms to lessen the intensity of being attracted to just one? Does he have to engage in bed-hopping, hoping that one of his partners would turn out to be a fine distraction?

There are many ways of self-preservation, but the choices doesn't guarantee of any peace.

Thus, we explore the possibilities of protecting ourselves by declaring me an open city. In this way, we can continue expressing our affection without complicating our intentions with direct attachments. We shall speak of our longings until the other retreats from our presence; We shall spare ourselves from appeasing someone, for our goal will never be to get accepted.

It will be the other who would recognize us in their own manner.

Whoever acknowledges us will be the one we shall faithfully protect. There will be no expectations, nor us imposing our will.

Any military force could station themselves in our citadel.

While we entrust our heart in places beyond reach.

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Habang nag-iinuman, naikuwento ko sa aking kasama ang tungkol sa crossing the line. Isang torrid kiss lang ang kailangan para tuluyan akong bumagsak sa isang tao. Sa mga pagkakataong nangyayari ito, madalas ay kasabay noon ang pagbubukas ko ng puso.

Hindi ko ugali ang manguna at dahil wala sa diskarte ko ang gumawa ng first move, hinayaan kong mga mata ng aking kainuman ang siyang mang-akit upang sarili ay isuko. Sa banyo sa loob ng Serenda, nagkasabay kaming umihi. Mga mata namin ay nagtama matapos maghugas ng kamay.

Dinaan sa pasimpleng ngiti.

At dahan-dahang paglalapit ng katawan.

Hindi ko namalayan magkalapat na pala ang aming mga labi.

11 comments:

Jinjiruks said...

"we can continue expressing our affection without complicating our intentions with direct attachments"

ang hirap naman ata ng ganito. one sided lang na relationship. and naka depende sa tao kung ibabalik ba niya ang affection na binibigay mo. sensya kna kuya knox. medyo magulo lang isip ko ngayon.

nakaka-relate ako at this moment dahil sa message ng beb ko sa akin,

"Beb, don’t get me wrong pero… don’t invest too much… auko ng ganun,

Kelangan ng even tyo… kelangan. Chill lang muna. Since yung set up din naman ntin wala pa naman commitment."

gillboard said...

di ako makarelate.. hehe

<*period*>; said...

kung kelan ako naging okay, kaw naman ngayon ang nagkakaganiyan..cheer up po

june showers said...

go with the flow...yan ang bagong mantra ko...hehehe.

i guess, openness is the key to happiness lalot pagdating sa matters of the heart at sa object ng yung desire hehehe. sori, mejo ma-keso.

masaya ka ba habang buhay kung naprotektahan mo ang yung sarili sa sakit ng kabiguan kung ang kalalabasan mapupunta ka sa di mo talagang gusto?

sa ganang akin ang self-preservation mangyayari pag may real and imminent danger. pagdating sa usapang puso sa akin after the fact na. mag risk muna pero nakaantabay na ang arsenal mo just in case di maganda kinalalabasan ng exploratory talks hehe. pagbasted na e di wag magpumilit yan ang danger na nakikita ko pag lalong magpumilit. pero ang di pagtapat na nararamdaman? pano mo malalaman kung di mo sasabihin malay mo naghihintayan lang pala kayo. self-healing naman ang puso e. di mo naman hahayaan mag self-destruct ang sarili mo dahil tinurndown ka. e di hanap ulet.

kulet ko...

Knox Galen said...

June Showers: Ang mahirap kasi, nagkasabihan na eh. Problema na lang kung kaya ba panindigan.

Aaminin ko, kahit ako nag-aalala na hindi ko kayang panindigan ang mga sinabi ko. Hindi ko lang alam bakit ako nagsta-stay.

Period: Huwag ka mag-alala, madali lang akong maka-get back. Isang clubbing lang to.

O kaya isang drill. Alin man ang mauna.

Kaya ayokong exposed ang puso. Ganito ang nangyayari sa akin.

Gillboard: Palibhasa may Monday ka na eh. Hehehehe.

Knox Galen said...

Jinjiruks: Tama ka bro. Medyo intense kasi ako pag may emotional investment ako sa isang tao. At some point, tingin ko nagiging easy-to-get ako. Kaya siguro mabuting chill lang.

:) Thanks sa reinforcement.

john stanley said...

minsan masyado nating nira-rationalize ang isang sitwayon dahilan upang makalimutan na nating makiramdam. unless we are there to fool around, i think hindi dapat calculated ang response.

Knox Galen said...

John: Yun ang isang bagay na kailangan ko pa i-rationalize sa sarili ko. Hindi to labanan ng pride kundi usapang puso.

Thanks for reminding me. :)

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dencios said...

ahirap makahanap ng peace kapag walang tiwala. pero mahirap magtiwala sa taong wala ka pala talagang lugar sa puso nya.

Allan said...

sometimes, the very actions we surmise as self-preservation are the ones that actually destroy us...

hinay-hinay kasi utol. sige ka, baka lalo ka lang nyan mapahamak.