CEBU CITY, Philippines – A Cebuano male florist in his 30s was teary-eyed when he saw the video of his surgery for the first time.
The emergency operation last January was already traumatic.
Having a spray can removed from his rectum after a night of sex with a stranger was something he regretted.
Danilo (not his real name) was horrified to see images of the surgery three months later circulating on the popular video-sharing website YouTube.
Danilo said he felt violated and would file charges against medical personnel at the government-owned Vicente Sotto Medical Memorial Center (VSMMC).
- inq7.net
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The news have reached me through Punked's sms last Wednesday.
Being sleepy while attending my sister's graduation that morning, I did not take his text message seriously. In fact, my take on the issue was that of all the objects he would stuck inside his ass, he chose a hairspray over a more organic material - like a banana or a huge eggplant for example. I thought what he did was a kind of tripping going overboard - which some gays are known for. I thought it was an act of pathetic desperation that don't deserve any sympathy from someone who can still think sanely.
The true extent of the scandal only hit me when MGG discussed it over his blog a few hours later.
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By now, everyone knows what happened.
Jan-jan was drunk after attending a New Year's party last January. On his way home, he met a callboy who he convinced to have sex with him. The callboy had a small weenie according to Jan-jan, and in his tackless state didn't mind telling him his "shortcomings." With the callboy's ego bruised, he got back by inserting a foreign object inside the recipient's rectum. The following morning, Jan-jan felt strange. Something was stuck inside and it made him sick.
The doctors immediately recommended an emergency operation to keep his ass from getting infected.
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I could only imagine the suffering he had gone through.
We all know that what he did was sheer stupidity. But who can blame him? He is a 39-year old lonely gay guy looking for intimacy. Unfortunately, the only company available at the time was a lowly callboy who was looking for ways to earn money. The problem was that he complained about his weenie, and of all the things that hurt a man's ego so much is when his dick size gets questioned. Naturally, he got back and made sure the one who mocked his sensitive weenie learned his lesson well.
Fear grips in the moment the mocker felt something strange inside his body. It made him sick, paranoid and depressed. Probably, he was aware of what he did and in his shame, tried to hide the secret from everyone. But truth comes out when a person feels helpless. Even if his name was at stake, he went to the hospital in hopes of getting answers from professionals.
He did, and the cost of his blunder was a costly and humiliating rectal operation.
The suffering did not end there. The doctors informed him that since his was a unique case, they decided to video the operation for future purposes. Janjan could not complain. I'm sure that what he felt then was liberation from shame. What was important for him is to get back to his normal life after his three-day ordeal. The past didn't matter. What's important is the present.
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However, when there is hatred and mockery, it persistently tries to find ways to reach others...
... so that the hate and mockery will grow and multiply, until karma strikes back those who perpetrated them.
And there was this YouTube scandal.
Maybe, for some Divine intervention someone made a headline out of a seemingly trivial video. Jan-jan soon learned about the betrayal and it shattered him to pieces. It put him more to shame now that his little secret was leaked out in the internet.
But his scandal did awaken a sleeping giant. PDI had made headlines about the appalling medical practices of VSMMC. In response, the DOH had stepped up to get those responsible punished. The whole gay community is at uproar at what they see as discrimination against homosexuals. Jan-jan's tragedy had mobilized everyone. It also propelled him to an icon status.
Looking at how the story develops, it might even trigger a social revolution that would benefit gays as a whole.
However, my question is, do we deserve such benefit?
His tragedy reminds me of that thread in G4M, where a young faggot shamelessly accused another member of being infected with HIV. Everyone who felt violated ganged up on the juvenile accuser. Meanwhile, his accusations made me severely upset, a few weeks later, I deleted my account.
Jan-jan's ordeal reminds me of the Montano scandal and how Brian Gorell, in his tragedy, promoted a culture of hate and bitterness among urban yuppies for weeks. I sympathize with Gorell, but I am also aware of those nasty anonymous comments that fueled the fire and made the scandal a nationwide sensation.
For some reasons, why do I feel that the mainstream gay life has become a sort of karnabal for everyone to laugh at and made mockery of? Why do I feel that those who destroy us are none other than we ourselves?
Being aware of the PLU demography among nurses and medical professionals, I wouldn't be surprised that some of those who jeered, clapped, and eventually uploaded the video clip of Jan-jan's rectal operation on YouTube is none other but another hopeless and desperate gay person.
Bound to commit the same degree of mistake sometime later in life.
The emergency operation last January was already traumatic.
Having a spray can removed from his rectum after a night of sex with a stranger was something he regretted.
Danilo (not his real name) was horrified to see images of the surgery three months later circulating on the popular video-sharing website YouTube.
Danilo said he felt violated and would file charges against medical personnel at the government-owned Vicente Sotto Medical Memorial Center (VSMMC).
- inq7.net
---
The news have reached me through Punked's sms last Wednesday.
Being sleepy while attending my sister's graduation that morning, I did not take his text message seriously. In fact, my take on the issue was that of all the objects he would stuck inside his ass, he chose a hairspray over a more organic material - like a banana or a huge eggplant for example. I thought what he did was a kind of tripping going overboard - which some gays are known for. I thought it was an act of pathetic desperation that don't deserve any sympathy from someone who can still think sanely.
The true extent of the scandal only hit me when MGG discussed it over his blog a few hours later.
---
By now, everyone knows what happened.
Jan-jan was drunk after attending a New Year's party last January. On his way home, he met a callboy who he convinced to have sex with him. The callboy had a small weenie according to Jan-jan, and in his tackless state didn't mind telling him his "shortcomings." With the callboy's ego bruised, he got back by inserting a foreign object inside the recipient's rectum. The following morning, Jan-jan felt strange. Something was stuck inside and it made him sick.
The doctors immediately recommended an emergency operation to keep his ass from getting infected.
---
I could only imagine the suffering he had gone through.
We all know that what he did was sheer stupidity. But who can blame him? He is a 39-year old lonely gay guy looking for intimacy. Unfortunately, the only company available at the time was a lowly callboy who was looking for ways to earn money. The problem was that he complained about his weenie, and of all the things that hurt a man's ego so much is when his dick size gets questioned. Naturally, he got back and made sure the one who mocked his sensitive weenie learned his lesson well.
Fear grips in the moment the mocker felt something strange inside his body. It made him sick, paranoid and depressed. Probably, he was aware of what he did and in his shame, tried to hide the secret from everyone. But truth comes out when a person feels helpless. Even if his name was at stake, he went to the hospital in hopes of getting answers from professionals.
He did, and the cost of his blunder was a costly and humiliating rectal operation.
The suffering did not end there. The doctors informed him that since his was a unique case, they decided to video the operation for future purposes. Janjan could not complain. I'm sure that what he felt then was liberation from shame. What was important for him is to get back to his normal life after his three-day ordeal. The past didn't matter. What's important is the present.
---
However, when there is hatred and mockery, it persistently tries to find ways to reach others...
... so that the hate and mockery will grow and multiply, until karma strikes back those who perpetrated them.
And there was this YouTube scandal.
Maybe, for some Divine intervention someone made a headline out of a seemingly trivial video. Jan-jan soon learned about the betrayal and it shattered him to pieces. It put him more to shame now that his little secret was leaked out in the internet.
Nakakalungkot lang dun, for a guy who probably doesn't have access to such technology, discovering that he is a victim of it made the whole ordeal more painful.
But his scandal did awaken a sleeping giant. PDI had made headlines about the appalling medical practices of VSMMC. In response, the DOH had stepped up to get those responsible punished. The whole gay community is at uproar at what they see as discrimination against homosexuals. Jan-jan's tragedy had mobilized everyone. It also propelled him to an icon status.
Looking at how the story develops, it might even trigger a social revolution that would benefit gays as a whole.
However, my question is, do we deserve such benefit?
His tragedy reminds me of that thread in G4M, where a young faggot shamelessly accused another member of being infected with HIV. Everyone who felt violated ganged up on the juvenile accuser. Meanwhile, his accusations made me severely upset, a few weeks later, I deleted my account.
Jan-jan's ordeal reminds me of the Montano scandal and how Brian Gorell, in his tragedy, promoted a culture of hate and bitterness among urban yuppies for weeks. I sympathize with Gorell, but I am also aware of those nasty anonymous comments that fueled the fire and made the scandal a nationwide sensation.
For some reasons, why do I feel that the mainstream gay life has become a sort of karnabal for everyone to laugh at and made mockery of? Why do I feel that those who destroy us are none other than we ourselves?
Being aware of the PLU demography among nurses and medical professionals, I wouldn't be surprised that some of those who jeered, clapped, and eventually uploaded the video clip of Jan-jan's rectal operation on YouTube is none other but another hopeless and desperate gay person.
Bound to commit the same degree of mistake sometime later in life.
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