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Saturn keeps asking you to be responsible and make sure that whatever you do is in alignment with your ultimate goals, and there’s a reason why he’s asking. You’re moving into a high-powered position, and you’ll be there very shortly, if you’re not there already. As a major voice of authority in the world, you’ll need to be the example of a well-integrated person, whatever that means to you. This week your desire for adventure will far outweigh your capacity to reason, so please be conscious. You can have a great time, spending your money and sharing the fun with everyone you know, but in the end you have to be sure that the way you come off to others isn’t undermining all your hard work. This week you could throw away a decade of labor for a moment of fun. Proceed with care.

Astrological forecast for the week of April 21 - 27, Sagittarius
Notes Along A Journey Blog

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Darkstar: Joms ang tanga tanga mo talaga!

Joms: Alam ko, and I am so proud of my stupidity.

Mugen: Haha Pucha under one minute, nakahanap ka kaagad ng karir pagkapasok mo sa loob ng Che'Lu. Sinong mag-aakalang ganito ka na kabangis ngayon.

Joms: Kaya nga matindi rin ang control ko eh. Alam ko kung ano ang potentials ko... matagal na.

Pulsar: Ano ba talaga ang nangyari. Magkwento ka naman for the sake na may pag-uusapan tayo.

Joms: Ganito yun mga parekoy. Sinamahan ko yung mga tropa ko sa Odders mag-Malate ngayong gabi kasi daw matagal na silang hindi nakakabalik dun. Nagmamagandang-loob lang naman ako dahil sa kanilang lahat, ako lang talaga ang hindi nawalan ng connection sa lugar. In fact, karamihan nga ng mga ka-generation namin ay bathouse at massage parlors na ang pinupuntirya eh. Just for old time sake, I went to Malate and brought them with me.

Pulsar: Okay. Bakit ka sinabihan ng tanga ni Darkstar?

Joms: As usual, balik ako sa dating hang-out. Nagkataon naman na habang papunta kami sa dance floor ay may na-ispatan akong lalaking pasok na pasok sa trip ko.

Mugen: Nagkataon na trip rin niya si Joms. We could see it in his eyes.

Pulsar: Mind describing this guy to me?

Joms: Ordinary guy lang siya sa standards ng marami. Mga 5'6 ang tangkad, payat at kayumanggi ang kulay ng kanyang balat. Naka-cap siya na white at yellow ang suot niyang polo.

Pulsar: So anong nakita mo dito sa binata at bakit mo siya nagustuhan?

Darkstar: Ako na ang sasagot para kay Joms. Gaya ng mga natritripan niya, he stands out among the crowd. Mukhang sanggano. May goatie na, may soul patch pa sa mukha. Mapungay ang kanyang mga mata at sa tindig pa lang ay alam mong barako siya.

Mugen: Yeah. Rugged type ang gusto ni Joms eh, and he very much fitted into his ideal guy.

Pulsar: Gaya ni Bamboo-looking guy at ni boylet from last time?

Joms: Oo. Ewan ko ba, bakit may fetish ako sa mga lalaki na mukhang muslim o kaya naman ay bad boy. Kulang na lang ay bentahan niya ako ng dibidi eh.

Darkstar: Matangos kasi ang ilong kaya ka baliw sa kanya.

Pulsar: So anong nangyari pagkatapos.

Joms: Obviously gusto namin ang isa't isa. Pero dude, I swear, hindi ako sasama ang loob kung mapupunta siya kay Nate, yung isa kong tropa. Nung una nga, sila ang gusto kong i-pair up eh.

Darkstar: Kaso mo, kay Joms siya pumunta. Si Joms rin ang unang nagpakita ng interest sa kanya.

Mugen: To continue the story, nagsayaw sila for around two hours. Walang palitan ng partner yun ha. At mind you, close dancing ito. I wouldn't be surprised if they touched each other's body dahil dun.

Darkstar: Which is what they actually did. Grabe. Ang sarap sana halikan ng chest nung guy. Balbon kasi. Arghhh!! Bakit ba kasi ngayon pa naging torpe si Joms eh.

Pulsar: Is that all that happened?

Joms: Ah eh..

Darkstar: To continue the story. Masikip sa loob ng dance floor. Nagkataon na umatake na naman ang pagiging knight in shining armor nitong kupal nating kaibigan kaya hayun, feeling protected ang lalaki. Sa lapad ba naman ni Joms, literal na binakuran niya si binata habang sayaw lang ng sayaw ang lalaki. Naghubad pa nga siya ng damit eventually eh.

Mugen: Habang si Joms naman ang nalamog sa lahat ng mga dumaraan. Ewan ko na lang, if some guy did that to Joms, hindi rin ako magtataka na lumambot talaga ang puso niya sa taong ito.

Darkstar: Which I think is what really happened. Even toughies would appreciate being protected when they feel vulnerable. It's a human nature.

Joms: How I wish someone would do that to me. Pero sadya atang ako ang laging mahilig tumapat sa line of fire eh.

Pulsar: Any violations you did? Tahimik si Dominus. Something naughty must have happened.

Joms: Ni-lips to lips ko yung guy. Masyadong tense ang aming sayawan eh, bumigay ako sa kanya.

Darkstar: Ni-lips to lips nga, daig pa si Maria Clara sa pagiging mahinhin humalik. Haay.

Joms: Alam ko na hesitant siya sa kanyang gagawin. He's trying to show a very masculine image to everyone eh. Tingin mo ba, bakit naghubad ako ng damit kasabay niya nung nagsasayaw kami?

Pulsar: Bakit nga ba??

Joms: Dahil ayaw ko siyang mapag-isa sa gagawin niya. Isa pa, I don't want to appear na subordinate sa kanya no? Even if my chest, I think, is still sagging, my shoulders and my back could compensate for my shortcomings.

Pulsar: Now that we have established that something happened. Did it end up elsewhere?

Mugen: Unfortunately no.

Darkstar: Sayang. Chance ko na yun para may matikmang bago.

Joms: I already violated the Awakening agreement. At least man lang, I could avert a greater disaster by doing the almost impossible by ending the intimacy right on the dance floor.

Darkstar: Gusto ka talaga nung guy Joms. Sumunod na sayo palabas, pinisil pa ang etits mo para ipaalam sayo na gusto ka niya makasex.

Joms: Kaya nga diba pinisil ko rin ng pasimple yung sa kanya para malaman niyang trip ko rin siya. I can bring him to the nearest motel if I want to. Kaso mo nagpaalam ako na may work pa ako.

Darkstar: Nagsinungaling ka nga eh... Kung di mo ginawa yun, I can give him our best. I'd make sure he will never forget us.

Joms: And as the price, I might... get attached.

Pulsar: Good thing you are aware of that.

Joms: Sa mga nangyayari sa akin at sa buhay pag-ibig ko, I have all the right in the world to look for someone who could make me feel. Namimiss ko na ma-infatuate, ang masiraan ng bait dahil sa isang tao. Let's not talk about Phanks, pero kapag nasisiraan ako ng bait sa kanya, it's because I worry. It's not because I am intoxicated with infatuation.

Darkstar: Let's not delve into that aspect of your life. Chill dude.

Pulsar: Love and lust are two different matters. The only problem is, you pretend to be tough, when you know, only a thin wooden wall prevents you from crashing into someone else's life.

Dominus: It was very disappointing. But I am proud that you exchanged your earthly desires for your higher goals. It was extremely close, but you managed to get out in one piece.

Joms: I did. I even sealed everything by giving him a fake number. I swear, I won't think twice of hanging out with that guy, especially if I find out that our interests are the same if I gave him my true number.

Darkstar: Hindi kaya nag-sayang ka ng pagkakataon para mahanap ang iyong tunay na kaligayahan?

Joms: But this is my life. Much as I would like to get a number 2, I know it is very unfair for the one. I never intended P-Man for that position, but he was, now that I am not afraid of admitting it, close to being that person.

Darkstar: Nanghihinayang pa rin ako. Parang iniwan mo sa ere yung guy.

Joms: I wouldn't mind letting you out and transform into a real human if it would make him feel comforted. I made him feel that I was his, until I decided to wake up from our dream.

Joms: Given the chance that something happened between us. I wouldn't follow my lust. Instead, it would be a night of affection. Ganun naman hanap ng mga taong nag-iisa dun diba? All they want is to feel needed. They want to feel that someone is beside them and will never leave their side. Expert tayo sa ganyang emotions parekoy.

Darkstar: Kaya ang mga one night stand mo eh nauuwi sa relasyon o sa FUBU dahil sa ganyan mong prinsipyo eh.

Joms: Precisely, that's why I avoid doing sex with sleepovers before. I make the person feel, for the lack of proper word to use, loved. Kala mo mahirap rin sa akin yun, kasi nakakaramdam rin ako. The mere fact I am willing to stay and keep the person company means I am investing my emotions. Sa pag stay ko kasi imposibleng walang sentihan ang maganap.

Joms: Remember Darkstar, I know you are my tough side. Pero know what, the best feeling in the world is to wake up with someone sleeping beside you. Yung tipo bang madiin pa ang pagkakayakap sayo at ginagawa kang unan.

Darkstar: Fine. Tama na nga ang drama. So it's the end for that guy. Sayang talaga but it's your call. Bilib ako sa self control at diskarte mo. It only shows you're becoming one with yourself.

Joms: I wish.

Pulsar: So paano guys. What will happen next?

Dominus: I suggest Joms should stop going to Malate for the meantime. Palagi na lang ganito nauuwi ang storya eh. If he really desires to achieve a higher state of consciousness, he should, by all means, abstain from all earthly pleasures.

Joms: I am just human not to long for those desires.

Darkstar: Joms is just human not to feel horny all the time. Dinadaan na nga lang niya sa Jeff Palmer madalas eh.

Dominus: But you made a promise before. Don't tell me you're backing out now that you're beginning to reap the rewards of your sacrifices.

Joms: I will try my best to keep still. It would be very challenging, but I pray that I will never forget my word.

Pulsar: Well then, the conference is over and let's call it a night. Thank you boys for sharing your inputs and explanations. So far, we're doing well as a team and we should keep it that way.

Darkstar: Sayang pa rin...

Joms: I will think about him for days. I wonder how things would have been had I given him my number.

Dominus: Only time will tell, but I believe that he is not part of your fate. You did the right thing by letting him go.

Joms: Then I resign to my current state of existence. I sincerely hope that he will find the person he is looking for.

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Ngunit habang kami ay nagsasayaw sa dilim
at magkayakap ng mahigpit. Sa kanyang mga
ngiti at lapit ng aming mga labi sa isa't isa'y
ramdam ko ang kanyang saya sa
pagkakaroon ng kasama.

Kahit pa ito'y isang pangmagdamagan lang.